Spell last song syndrome.
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Reflection

Instead of complaining about the covid-19 and asking why the hell this is happening, maybe we should focus on the positive outcome that it can bring.

We've been too constantly busy about our work and dealing with personal issues at the same time.

A month of home quarantine means a pause from everything. Have you ever thought that this might be our chance, to reflect in life. To spend time with our family, to take some rest, to take care of our self especially our health. A break from all the chaos.

With us being self quarantined at home, we could contain the spreading of the virus. Also, the less people outside, the lesser the pollution around.

And in that way we are giving mother earth a chance and time to heal.

So I Thought..

All your twisted thoughts free flow

To everlasting memories, show soul

Kiss the stars with me
And dread the wait for
Stupid calls returning us to life

#TayLey

I don't mean to create any controversy out of this, but now I am somehow convinced that this song is pertaining to Taylor York!

I knew it! I knew it from the moment I heard and deep dived into the lyrics.

Well, isn't it obvious? this video can attest my theory!

Some were saying na, its weird dahil para na silang magkapatid, but KEBS!

The fact that T, was the only person who stood by H all this time and also helped to overcome her battle against depression, is so admirable. In short, he is her support system, a proof  that T loves her so much and that their relationship can withstand everything. 

I've been shipping them since the "After Laughter" era.

This may sound a little odd, but I think they really should end up together.

Oh, my gosh!!! my TayLey heart is so f*ckin happy right now.😍

I'm so living for this lyric video!

#TeamTayLey

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Conspiracy

Please speak softly
For they will hear us
And they'll find out
Why we don't trust them

Breaking The Habit

Dear self, its time.

 

Is this somehow relatable...
You're doing fine with your own thing then suddenly someone's gonna pop-up in your life out of nowhere, then you'll let them in. Ok, maybe I knew all along that I will get myself into trouble afterwards, but because you want to give this person a chance, your too in-denial  about the red flags. You welcomed this piece of shit along with thy circle of friends with your arms wide open. Without even imagining how they can be so consuming, draining and disturbing.

And after dealing with it for years, you've come to a point, a turning point. A realization that this cycle must end. Cutting them off into your life, slowly, one by one.

At first, I was hesitant, I even gave my self a deadline when to do it, but i kept delaying it, baka kasi sabihin I'm so"bitter". Some of my friends keep telling me that its okay, that my inner peace is more important than theirs. Which make sense, someone just cut me out of their life, leaving me alone, dealing with the toxicity they left behind, might as well do the same.

As per Marie Kondo's KonMari Method in Tidying Up with Marie Kondo, when you are decluttering, before you throw your stuff away, hold onto that item first, then ask yourself, does this thing still bring happiness?, if it still sparks joy keep it, if it doesn't, then its time to thank them and let go.

I think it also can be applied with people in your life. When that person, or group of people no longer serves your life anymore, just simply cut them off.

It will give you more sanity that you deserve and self love.

Breaking Free

The more you stare at your surroundings, the more it gets blurry.

The more it gets quite, the louder the noise you hear inside your head.

The more it gets peaceful around, the more whirlwind of emotions you can feel inside your heart.

It’s kind of astounding to think that when your mind and body is at rest, that’s the time when you feel most jaded.

All along you wanted to run, laugh, cry and scream at the same time, but there you are, gazing blankly into nothingness.

Lost with your tangled thoughts and slowly drowning yourself with an unsettling sensations.

Mentally and emotionally draining as it may seem, yet you find yourself standing still and breathing.

Then in just one snap you’re back again into this world of so called "reality", 

 where you have no choice but to look for better reasons to keep going.

Hello Cold World

"I feel happy, I feel sad, I feel like running through the walls."